Kelly Osbourne has shared the personal struggles and insecurities she faced while growing up in the public eye in a poignant essay in which she admits that she would often act like a ‘brat’ on purpose because that was how she was portrayed in the media.
The 31-year-old television personality shared her story and encouraged women to support one another as part of Mogul’s #IAmAMogul campaign, admitting that she has often found it difficult to deal with the cruel public criticism she has faced throughout her life.
‘In my life, I have been publicly labeled everything from a drug addict, fat, a racist, a spoilt brat, talentless, too skinny to be America’s Sweetheart,’ she wrote. ‘As a result of this, I would do anything to not be me.
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Price of fame: Kelly Osbourne has penned an emotional essay about the insecurities she faced while growing up in the public eye. The 31-year-old is pictured at the Elton John AIDS Foundation’s Oscar viewing party
Blonde beauty: Kelly is pictured with her father Ozzy Osbourne she was just 12 years old. Thanks to the rocker’s popularity, Kelly has lived most of her life in the public eye
‘I would go to bed praying to wake up anyone else but myself. I fed into the media stories, I played up to being a brat, and I was the definition of lost.’
Kelly, who is the daughter of rockstar Ozzy Osbourne and his wife, TV personality Sharon Osbourne, starred alongside her famous family in the wildly successful MTV reality series, The Osbournes, from the ages of 17 to 20.
During the series, both she and her brother Jack became known for their rebellious behavior – a role which Kelly now admits she actually played up to.
But even before the family starred in their own reality series, Kelly was thrust into the spotlight, thanks to her father’s hugely-successful music career – and in her essay, Kelly readily admitted that growing up in the entertainment industry had its ‘ups and downs’.
In her book, Fierce, which was released in 2009, Kelly admitted to becoming addicted to Vicodin at the age of just 16, revealing that she first tried the opiate-based drug when she was 13, after being prescribed it during a routine operation to remove her tonsils.
But it was when she began clubbing at 16 that she developed a real habit, after being offered pills of the drug by an acquaintance.
All together: Kelly (far left) posed alongside her father Ozzy, her mother Sharon, her sister Aimee (far right) and her brother Jack (center) for this family portrait in 1992
In the public eye: Kelly and her family starred in the MTV reality series, The Osbournes, when she was just 17 years old, and she admitted that she ‘played up to being a brat’
‘I was relaxed, tingly and happy. The next morning, I called the guy and bought two or three pills for about $20,’ she wrote in the book.
Kelly’s addiction grew serious when her mother, Sharon, was diagnosed with cancer in 2002.
‘I was trying to stay strong so I took Vicodin to hide the terrible sadness. But by this point, I was waking up and emptying six Vicodin into my hand.
‘Soon I was taking 50 pills a day. Most people would overdose on ten.’
And although Kelly says in her new online post that she is now grateful for how fortunate she is, she believes that people often fail to realize that she faces the same insecurities as every other woman.
‘A big misconception about fame is that sometimes people forget that you are human; that you too deal with the issues that all women face, ranging from self-worth, body image, societal beauty standards, and the feeling of needing to be perfect,’ she explained.
Kelly went on to say that she eventually realized that she will never be able to be what everyone wants her to be – or thinks she should be – and that’s OK.
‘One day, I woke up sick and tired of being sick and tired, and realized that the only thing that I will ever be, is me,’ she wrote. ‘So, why not be the best me that I can be because I am never going to be perfect or someone else.’
Family portrait: Kelly and her brother Jack can be seen with their parents at the annual Pride of Britain Awards in 2015
Take that: Kelly took to Instagram on Sunday to share a photo of herself at her first kickboxing class
Kelly said she has come to learn that some doesn’t want to be the ‘skinniest, the prettiest, the smartest, the funniest, the tallest’ or the ‘best at anything’ because ‘there will always be someone “better”‘.
‘You can’t change who you are, but you can change your actions,’ she explained. ‘My wish is that girls and women stop competing with each other and learn that we are our best allies.
‘We are fierce, phenomenal, beautiful creatures to be celebrated, and if someone tells you differently, persevere and keep working hard to achieve your dreams.’
Kelly, who was most recently a judge on Australia’s Got Talent, faced harsh public criticism last August when she made a racist remark about Latinos while co-hosting the View.
‘If you kick every Latino out of this country, then who is going to be cleaning your toilet Donald Trump?’ she asked during a Hot Topics segment about Donald Trump’s poll numbers within the community.
Kelly tried to clarify her racially charged comments, but Rosie Perez interrupted her and said: ‘Latinos are not the only people doing that.’
Happy day: In February, Kelly surprised her brother Jack’s daughter Pearl with a visit form a mermaid
Famous friends: Kelly has amassed a tight-knit circle of A-list pals, including lifestyle guru Gwyneth Paltrow, who she is seen posing with in a recent Instagram snap
Ironically, the incident took place almost six months after she left Fashion Police after her former co-host Giuliana Rancic made a racially insensitive comment about Zendaya’s hair at the 2015 Oscars.
Kelly later took to Twitter to apologize for her words, writing: ‘I want to start by saying I always take responsibility for my actions. In this particular case I will take responsibility for my poor choice of words but I will not apologize for being a racist as I am not.
‘I whole-hearted f**** up today. I don’t want to bulls**t anyone with lame excuses. Although, I was stopped mid-sentence by Rosie and couldn’t finish my point I will not let Rosie take responsibility for my words.
‘I should have known better as I was on The View and it was live. I’ve learned a very valuable lesson. It is my hope that this situation will open up a conversation about immigration and the Latin community as a whole. By the way I clean my own f***ing toilets.’